|Time is the devils work
||[Dec. 5th, 2010|01:34 pm]
it's been a terrible year to say the least, and it didn't end with a whimper, but with a bang. |
fuck you 2010 is all i can say. i thought 2008 was a bad year, but 2010 took the cake by far. what i hate most is sure it's the worst for now, but wait for the future when things get worse. when i'll look back 2010 wouldn't have seemed so bad. such a morbid view, yet it's the truth. we can't hide from the truth no matter how hard we try to. (i think i like hiding from it the most)
two posts in a row is something i didn't want so i just didn't come here. slowly and surely i found my way back.
November was terrible. experienced what it was like to lose a friend. he wasn't the closet friend, but he was someone you just knew was there for you if you need it. he was a good one, and that's not even doing justice. (want to be a better writer right about now)
to think the last time i saw him i served him at the bees, and i thought at the time "damn it's been too long since i've hung out with Eric." memories can suck more than real time.
November was terrible. my cat Silver of 17 years old was put down near the end of the month. i'd only ever been around one cat being put down like that, as different as it was i still remember i cried because death is just damn sad. he was my first cat so that made it pretty fucking hard. but i had time to think about it luckily, something death doesn't get a chance for most the time. he was going downhill, and it always goes fast. i couldn't let him go out that way. it's hard to bury your cat.
so we hope December shines brighter, it is the time people are warmest. my molars are acting up, possibly my wisdom teeth but it's hard to tell. one side curved up last night while i was working, hurt a bit to talk to tables so i had a funny voice. this morning the other side starting slightly curving up. i don't get dental til jan 1st. oh 2010 why do you have to be so evil?